FIRST POST OF 2010!!!

Its a shame that this is my first post of 2010!! :(

but anyways, the year had started of good!!!! until not too long ago, its funny how you can poor yourself into someone, put yourself, on the tracks for someone,and even take bullets for someone, yet it is never appreciated, its pretty sad that u can care and care and care and care, and then get spat in the face!!! its a shame, that ppl have forgotten that life isnt all abt you, the world revolves around the sun and not you.......its a shame that old feelings die hard, its funny how u can be one of the sweetest ppl, but are turned to sumthing horrid, to the likes of which u never culd imagine!!! It pains me that, ppl can be so naive and not see that wut they are looking for is ryte in front of them!! it pains me that, this society has warped the minds of our children,and has doomed them before they even start!!!! it worries me that, i may not be fit for this time!!!! It worries me that things WILL get worse as my life progresses!!! Im upset at the fact that, i have changed sooo much due to my environment and scenarios i have lived thru!!! Im upset at the fact that i allow myself to get in positions where the only outcome is negative!!! I dont understand y ppl, cant help themselves!!!! I dont understand y things must be so difficult for me....I cant see what my purpose is......I cant see the end of the path i am going down!!!!
R.I.P. 2009