Too nice!!!!

Its been a while since my last post...so heres a doozy...lol

People know me, they know who i am and what i stand for....but is that what i truly want to be...i dont kno sumtimes....yeah im nice, im cool.....but this isnt all god...the price i pay for this is too great.....i ve been paying for it for the longest my funds are low....im tired of this "nice guy" role...it doesnt do much for me other than for my image...im not happy...im not satisfied.....idk what i am to do about this......shuld i just say F*** it and just do for me 100% of the time...that has its draw-backs...but the rewards wuld be great and swift...this delayed gratification is starting to get to me...how long am i supposed to wait for my destiny, my peace....until then i must weigh my variables and choose...im lost and have no means in which to find my way back.....who knows what is in store for me down the road.......this sux!!!

YOU SAY YOUR MY FRIEND!!!!

You say you're my friend?
Last time i checked friends help each other out/ last time i checked you really don't do much of shit for me.
You say you're my friend?
Last time i checked friends valued each others word n o matter what/ last time i checked all you do is snake your way around behind my back despite what i say
You say you're my friend?
Last time i checked friends had each others back/ last time i checked u constantly you are constantly letting me down when i'm always there for you
You say you're my friend?
Last time i checked friends don't lie to each other/ last time i checked you are constantly lying to cover up your character flaws
You say you're my friend?
Well i say you're not and last time i checked we are no longer friends!!!

ITS SAD!!!

try,, lord i try...youve got too many fuck ups on this earth im sorry....ppl just dont listen..they dont have to follow my word to the T just enough to get out of their screwed up ways and situations.....im done...I surender...fuck em idc anymore..they do what they do...its their life....i have 1 or 2 more issues to deal with but after that im totally done..im in it for just me from now on..thats the only way to go...ppl dont deserve the help...im out!!!!! YOU'VE LOST A GOOD ONE!!!!

Whats that they say about a dead limb...cutt it off???

You say you're my friend?
Last time i checked friends help each other out/ last time i checked you really don't do much of shit for me.
You say you're my friend?
Last time i checked friends valued each others word n o matter what/ last time i checked all you do is snake your way around behind my back despite what i say
You say you're my friend?
Last time i checked friends had each others back/ last time i checked u constantly you are constantly letting me down when i'm always there for you
You say you're my friend?
Last time i checked friends don't lie to each other/ last time i checked you are constantly lying to cover up your flaws as a friend
You say you're my friend?
Well i say you're not and last time i checked we are no longer friends!!!

RANDOM VID!!!

I was randomly searching youtube and found this video....ENJOY....

GIZMO ReViEw!!!!!!

#1

I have always loved gadget reviews....and since im always getting new gadgets i figured that id start doin my own....lol...well # 1 is gonna b...the Fujifilm FinePix S1000fd...slr digital camera..

I just ordered this and it should be here in the next couple day but here are some specs on it.....

1. 10.0 Megapixels
   
2. 12x Optical/5.7x Digital Zoom
3. memory via Built-in , SD Card, xD Picture Card or SDHC Card
4. 2.7 in LCD screen

Well those r some specs...but i will give a more in depth review once i get to play with it a lil...

Results of Play:





Next Gizmo: Casio CTK5000 61-key portable keyboard

FrIeNd!!!

IF YOU LOVE [[ME]] (as a [[FRIEND]] ) [[you'll]] read the whole thing. What would [[you]] do if for every moment [[you]] were truly happy there would be [[10]] moments of sadness? What would [[you]] do if [[your best friend]] died tomorrow and [[you]] never got to tell [[them]] how [[you]] felt? So, [[I]] just wanted to say, even if [[I]] never talk to [[you]] again in my life, [[you]] are special to [[me]] and [[you]] have made a difference in [[my]] life. I look up to [[you]], respect [[you]], and truly cherish [[you]].Remember, [[everyone]] needs a [[friend]]. dont ever leave the one [[you]] love for the one [[YOU]] like, because the one [[you]] like will leave [[you]] for the one [[they]] love.

KEEP [[UR]] HEAD UP!

If [[you]] wake up in a red room with no windows and doors, DON'T panic.. [[you're]] just in my heart!!!

Great Quote #1

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together". - Marilyn Manson

SOUNDTRACK of ME!!!!

1. RAIN MAN.........LIL WAYNE
2. CRUSH.................DAVID ARCHULETA
3. COLDEST WINTER.............KANYE WEST
4. FREEZE.......T-PAIN
5. AINT I (remix).......YUNG LA
6. SWAG-ON.....SOULJA BOY
7. SOMETHING......ESCAPE the FATE
8. ICEBOX.........OMARION
9. TEARS DONT FALL....BULLET FOR MY VALENTINE
10. GIRL UR WHAT I NEED............RAY J
11. SUPERHUMAN.....CHRIS BROWN
12. HUSTLAZ AMBITION...........YOUNG JEEZY
13. UMMA DO ME.......ROCKO
14. SUPERMAN.......EMINEM
15. BAD NEWS.......KANYE WEST
16. CUPID.......112

did you know?

35 ppl each year ateempt suicide by jumping off the Brooklyn bridge....most of them due to broken hearts.....

---------MIND F**Ker--------

lol...i dont what it is...is it a gift or a curse...should i use it for good or evil? i just do...it....i like it...idk y..i just do...heres my secret....i dont talk much around strangers or ppl i just met..few ppl really know me...and thats on perpose....its funny cuz i meet ppl and know more about them then they do of me almost 100% of the time...im an observer i sit back and watch you...watch you move think and act...so that i can predict ur every move...i like control..and being in control revolves solely on how much you know of the situation u r in or going into.....but n e wayz....i manifest myself in ur mind leaving seeds as i go...to blossom later in thought.....ill get in head and from there i will burrow my way down into your heart and once that happens theres no turning back...ive got you...i wont go away...and sum are lucky..that doesnt happen...i just get in their head and squeeze teir mind for all its worth..and that is me Mind F**ker..lol its fun...but hey..itll b alright....

---------HAPPYNESS------

what is true happiness? Hmmm...idk...Its different for everyone...for sum its a person, a place, or somthing...everyone deep inside has atleast one thing that brings them the most joy....it can be food, an activity, or even other ppls happiness...If you think you are an exception to the rule...think again....reach down deep and look, THERE IS SOMETHING....everyone deserves happiness...find yours and indulge.....

question?

This is to the ladies......what is it about bad guys that attracts you?

Underworld: Rise of the Lycans

OMFG!!! The Underworld prequel is coming out on the 23rd of this month....im stoked...and you should be too, that is if you like vampires or werewolves or both. This time around the blood feud between the vampires ands lycans will be explained. In how much detail, your guess is as good as mine but either way... im seeing. There is one problem so far though......the beautiful kate beckinsale was not casted in this one...boooo...but the also beautiful Rhon Mitra (Doomsday, Skinwalkers) is the new babe of this film. MOst of the original cast is returing this time for the start of this epic trilogy.... Underworld : Rise of the lycans in theaters jan. 23

guys, GuYs, GUYS

This is gonna be a great topic…….Its funny to me as I sit back and observe the reaction between guys and girls. Its so funny its ridiculous. Scientists would say the opposites attract and I would agree, but not in this case. Men, women, guys, girl, males, and females are so similar its retarded. Other than being the same species we think alike feel alike and have the same natural reflexes. It actually scares me some times because its these similarities that we hate about each other. Well not necessarily hate but just dislike a lil. I may be called a traitor and hung for this but I want the world to know what I have noticed. In the past few years we men have progressed in intelligence. Well I don’t know if its progression or we are finally tapping into what was there all along. Its pretty sad either way in my opinion but I digress. I have been noticing that men are becoming more humble to their feelings and that “im so hard” mentality is starting to slowly diminish. There will always be those extreme guys who say that they will never bow to there feelings when in fact its quite obvious that’s as human beings we are driven by what we feel and our emotions, females as well as males. Finally, its ok to express yourself for who you really are and stop fakin. I have gotten this so long ago but if guys would realize the similarities between them and women it would be much easier to get along with them. Easier to be in relationships and so forth. Its ridiculous how long its taken for the picture to be painted but its better late than never…….EMOTION…it drives us all and im tired of watching as my friends and other guys around me try and bottle it up….just say how you feel, and although its not easy, at least let someone know its there Damn!!!!……..It takes a bigger man to show his true feelings…..any guy who can do so is harder than any wanna be gangsta….and women respect you for it too….its simple, just be you…….peace

-------------Going Back to Skool-------------

Boy o boy, I’m counting down the days till we go back to school. I just can’t wait to see all my peoples and finally be back on my own again. Not to mention I’ve got like the easiest friggin schedule this semester. A lot of things have changed with me over break so far and I look forward to seeing the new me’s reaction to college life. Over the summer I changed and had a blast fall semester. Now ive evolved even further and spring semester is gonna be spectacular………. I can’t wait……

FrIeNdS!!! :)

“Friends, how many of us have them” as whodini would say. Do you have friends? I do. Now ask yourself do I really have “FRIENDS”? I guarantee there are some people that don’t. You may have people you know aka ACQUAINTANCES, but do you have any real friends. People who you know inside out as they do you. People who genuinely care for you as you do them. People who would never betray you or leave your side. People who “Gotch yo back”…..lol.. People who would do anything for you. People who would be there when no one even family are there to help. I can truthfully say I have a few of these. If you recall my “New Years Revelation” entry how I broke the windows in my garage, a couple of my friends took care of me……but there was one who showed his true colors and friendship. There will be no name dropping but he took took care of me by getting the windows fixed be 4 my parents got home. He did this on his own accord…I was knocked the hell out when he took care of it…. This is the kind of friend that everyone needs. One that holds you down till the end. And all I have to say is…….find one as soon as possible…you never know when you need that shoulder or ear…

Temptation

In life they say many things are b****es, for example, “life‘s a b****”, “paybacks a b****”, and “TEMPTATION is a B****”. I’m gonna talk about the last one. Temptation is a B**** if I have ever seen one. Its amazing how vast of a range temptation has. Every person on this earth is tempted by something everyday. It’s a good thing that temptation is positive and negative. I, from personal experience feel as though temptation is a chance to test your will or your restraint. Your temperance is definitely tested each day. All you can do is choose what to do when the time comes. Although anything can be tempting, the more powerful temptations tend to be neutral (between good and bad) and bad. It makes perfect sense, because the good things are easy to give into, where-as the not-so-good things are harder. But anyways…..don’t give into temptation all the time, pick your battles wisely because once you do something theres no taking it back………….

New Years Eve Revelation!!!!

Wow! This new years eve was crazy......other than having an awesome time with my friends, sum old sum new. when all of a sudden i had a breakdown. Every single negavtive thingin myy life from my relationship issues, my grandmother passing, my friends problems, my families problems, i just lost it. For the record this is the first time anything like this has ever happened. I have no anger management issues what so ever. I just became enraged at the situation, unfortunatley due to the emotion i put into everything i do. Most people do not know or understand this about me so their discretion is minimal. I hide it well and my disappointment in some people is soooo great....but i continue to hide it and that is what happened i couldnt hide it. I screamed, i cried and got pretty physical with my garage windows, injuring my hand pretty bad. Thank goodness i have the friends that i do. They took care of me. But more importantly i have learned a couple lessons from this........1. i realized that i had putting everyone else before me. and u cant help anyone unless u help yourself....2. I learned that holding in your frustration with yourself or others is not healthy st all, you must have a release....write swim, work out, even sex..will suffice....3. The most obvious of the lessons is that when you punch glass you get hurt so dont DO IT!!!! lol Ps. If it wasnt for my wonderful friends, i may not be here right now or things culda been much worse....its kinda funny though i wulda never been n this situation without them..lol well hey im not gettin rid of em so heres to many more adventures...uu guys know who u r...i love you!!!

-----Silent Soldier----

I lurk in the shadows of confrontation, hide behind walls in conversation, i dare not expose myself for the fear of taking a fatal blow from my enemies. Mine enemies armies can be swift and vast, i must dodge their hateful amnunition. My enemies indeed are selfish creatures who indulge in lifes benefits not stopping to think about how it affects them in the long run,
the character demolition that occurs with this carelessness. They can be helped but it will be hard, but until then I must be silent and observant. Ever vigilant my eye is to find ones
who need me. Some think of me as a hero, a messiah, a savior. I have no cape or tights, nor have i bared a cross. All i know is the basic principle of right and wrong and a true want to bring upon change and with that i will stand to fight against the horrrors of the world......swiftly i will swoop down and transform people one at a time with my words and ideology, its all relavent, im not special, everyone has the same capacities in which i posess, its only a matter of choosing to listen. But until people decide to reach down deep and better themselves as people i will reamin in the darkness..................waiting.........as a silent soldier....

Cardinal Virtues

There are four virtues in which i pride myself on. For those of you who may not be grasping the concept of the virtue, basically here are some adjectives: morals, rules, guidelines.....get it? Anyways, lol, These rules, these guidelines, even if not followed to the T will help you succeed in all aspects of life. But i must warn you, only those who are strong and truly feel this is the way for them will reap the benefits that come with them. They are:

1. Prudence - The ability to choose the appropriate action at a given point in time. The right thing, even if it is hard....a prudent person will do the right thing.
2. Justice - The proper moderation between self-interest and the rights and needs of others. Basically selflessness.
3. Temperance - Self-control, abstention and moderation
   
4. Fortitude - Forebearance, endurance, the ability to confront fear or uncertainty.

The Agenda!!!!

This is a preview of works in progress:
- Girls v.s. Guys (similarities/differences things u wulda never known)
- The Real World (Its hard out there step up)
- Silent Soldier (I am the Silent Soldier)
- Temptation (The dark side)
- Cardinal Virtues (The basis of my moral structure)
- My internship experience (self-explanatory)
- New Years Eve Revelation (self-explanatory)
- Friends (They come a dime a dozen but do you know when uve got a real one)
- Going back to school (Cant wait....may the change begin)

No one listens to Mikey!!!

"Mike help me!!!!", "Mike can i talk to you"
Its the same ol same ol.......im a nice person and will help anyone who needs my help......but you know wut rele grinds my gears......wut grinds my gears is wen people come to me for help...but try and fight it or just dont listen......and the worst is when they dont listen and then come back again. I can personally think of 4 of these exact scenarios that have occurred in the last couple months.... i could just stop helpin ppl..but thats my nature and i cant...even if i wanted too. All i can do is watch people make the same mistakes over and over and over again. It actually hurts cause i care and i dont want to see anyone in pain...mentally or physically.....whats wrong with yalll please STOP being so F***in stupid. Ur only hurting yourself....PEACE!!!

Warning!!

Warning warning........for those of you who read my blog...i just want to straighten sumthing out. This blog to me is sum-what like a journal or diary of sorts so what i says comes from the very fiber of my being and even though in the entries to come i may boost myself or try to make myself look i want you to open your eyes to the possibility that this is no hype. As a matter of fact its not posiblity it is what it is. I dont believe in slef-promotion unless its true. Nothing on this blog is fake, only true feelings allowed.......sknaht!

Way by: Phillip Landrey (this feeling sux)

Daylight breaks through equal bliss,
All the reruns consume our history.
Falling from grace,
I hope you’ll come sit by me.
All I wish is your hand,
It’s the entrance to your soul.
Each dream I had about you,
Got lost or thrown away;
I can’t wait forever,
Can’t you kiss me now?

All the poems I wrote,
Died and burned away.
You took another man,
After stealing my heart;
It cracked in two,
One for hate the other for you.
Didn’t I wait long enough?
Leaving it for the perfect time.
I can’t look at you now,
Won’t you turn away?

It’s lonely where I am now,
But I can’t turn away.
I think about you all the time,
Won’t you come listen to me?
Maybe one day I’ll get your kiss,
So I’ll feel your lips,
I won’t let the moment pass me by,
Please stay as the star in my sky;
Each day is lost without you.
Maybe one day it’ll turn out my way!

PPL Just Don't listen!!(old)

Why is it that ppl dont listen. Some of lifes lessons wouldnt be so hard to learn if ppl would just listen. Just remember that advice from those who love you isnt offered to hurt but to help or spare you.........SOme lessons must be learned the hard way and i feel bad for those who must endure them in this way.......i guess this why they say.........I told you so....................... :(

U wAnT Me To Be MoRe Open?

i dont know if this is truly me or what u want me to be
he doesnt deserve to call you his own
many times he has tripped up in the race to your heart
i dont know if this is me or who you want me to be
i dont know if im the the marathon runner to satisfy your races needs
i can try though, im n good shape i can do it
i can give you everything you need with an unflinching stride
we both know what we want but exile it due to concrete wall distractions
jump it jump it, jump the wall and see what you have been needing for the longest time
not a temporary releases every once and a while but one for every moment minute hour you need or want it
i dont know if this is me or who you want me to be
im just talking
spilling everything inside to you for you to digest
you say you ALLready know but how can you
you dont know the begining
please
look deep into yourself and see what is right
may it be a sign to move on or hold tight to where you are
when you know where you are most likely will bring you pain agian and again
excuse the mispells and the errors im n ot myself at the momnet but the message is gettin through just as clear
we are friends to a great extent and i hope this doesnt hurt that feeling we have but i just have to say
wo
this is a long note i never thought i had enuff to say to fill one these but i have said it
i dont know what it is but i you just ignite a fire deep within that has never been touched before
since the day i lay eyes upon your person a giant question mark has been there
now i know wut this means and now the question is shuld it be left alone or extinguished.............
but all i can do now is wait
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waiting wait i shall
and keep waiting i will until you come to your senses and realize what is ryte for you
i dont know if this is me or who you want me to be
i am coming back down from this heavenly high
and the words are beginning choked
so be fore i become my sheltered self again i wish to only say
that i love you.......girl......lady.......friend.....?
(its ok im lubricated)(inside joke)
sry

Disappointment.....

I am so so so so so so disappointed in people today. It's ridiculous how people carry themselves. Not to say that i dont have any flaws because i do but people today have lowered their standards of living, not financialy but mentally and morally. Morality is going out the window at an exponential rate and soon people like me will be phased out along with the knights in shining armor, and true gentlemen. It pains me to see the way we treat eacher in this time and age. You have those who think they are better than everyone else, those who are constantly bringing others down for their own amusement, you've got those folks who who no heart what so ever, no feelings for anyone but themselves. It is these kinds of people that disappoint me, and what makes it worse is that it not rare to find people with atleast one of theses traits. Its actually rarer to find people who dont, or people who do these things minimally. People today, revel in the idea that being hard and care-free is the way to got and brings the most benefits. They say "nice guys finish last" and whoever said can't be any more correct because personally i know this feeling, but in no matter what you do in life you always win in a way, no matter how miniscul you may think it is you do. Nice guys may finish last but they are always happy in the end. Like the tortoise and the hare, slow and steady wins the race. We needs to raise or moral standards and realize that you doont always have to win right now or even in a little while, but eventually you will prosper if you stay stedfast in your beliefs and be unhiltered by the social BUllshit that is being pumped out today. Rise up and fight, fight the slow decay of our social culture and progress as a race to better people..............