My Prayer.......

Praise be to GOD...as they say.....today i had a moment to myself to think/pray about myself and those around me....if you no me well enough you no that i am constantly evaluating myself and those around me....figguring out qualities of myself that may or may not need to be removed.....and the qualities in others in which are harmful to me.......sry for the rant...but back to the entry at hand.....i had a moment and decided to pray today, not just for myself for alot of people...
1.) I wanted to say a few words for my fell college attendee Corey Reddick . I know i did no you, prolly saw u a few times but non-the-less, im praying for your family and close friends who need a hand in handling your passing, i ask the lord to bless you and them, and give them strength to live on in your absence and remember your life and not your death. It is always hard to loose someone young.....the big man upstairs must have really needed you and im glad that u may now enjoy the splenders of his kingdom.....for all those mourning you i say this.......i know its hard and it may be overwhelming but just try and remember his life and not this tragedy.....
2.) I have realized how far i have fallen from your grace lord and i am now strong enough to make the journey to your embrace......I am truly thankful for the wonderful family and friends in my life which hold me together wen my own two feet can't....I thank you for my life, and every day you have woken me up from my slumber to further serve your word....I would like for you to bless my family and friends and their families.....also for mine enemies, please look over then and help settle any quams they may have with me, with you by my side i shalt not falter.....i would qoute psalms 23 but its a lil too long...i figured you already know it anyways.....that piece of scripture stood out to me today at the memorial service for Corey today which was not only enlightening but also moving....I thank you for this message that you have sent to me amongst this tragedy.....life is short and i can't keep this space between us......my arms are now open to embrace you..as yours have been for me my whole life......Take me into your heart of hearts.....IM READY!!

REALization!!!!!!

ok....ive figured this for a while but im finally concretely satisfied with this conclusion........ok......i have realized sumthin...i am a man who needs structure...support...foundation of some sort in my life.....this goes for everything......espescially wen it comes to relationships......like a and architect drawing a house..i have to b percise in the structure of my building.....any imperfections can lead to disaster....the smallest imperfect detail can make everything go bad......this process takes alot out of me physically and emotionally......i have preset rules and guidelines in which ensures balance...and lasting results....i need a friend in a girl....sum one who is caring, loving, smart, so on and so forth.......i need an all around great person...to stand by me........we shall both use each other as a crunch for the hardships we face on a daily basis...sumone who i can feel safe with......sumo ne i can be transparent with...who i can turn myself completely inside out with and not have to worry about them judging or ridiculing me.....this sounds quite cliche' but it is wut it is........i now no wut im looking for...and now i can make my moves....towards finding this person.......wish me luck!!! ;)